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A Boy Named Courage: A Surgeon’s Memoir of Apartheid

2019 ben franklin Silver award recipient

authors himmet dajee & patrice apodaca have been honored with a silver

Bill Fisher Award for Best First Book

in the nonfiction category, recognizing excellence in editorial and design.

Please join us in congratulating and thanking the authors and the Cynren design and editorial team for bringing Himmet’s truly inspiring story to the world.

 
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A new review from

Under the sun

The writing is full of exquisitely detailed scenes in which Ms. Knox spotlights every nuance of movement, emotion, and expression second by second to illustrate the intensity of personal interactions. The themes are serious; Ms. Knox questions the foundations of psychotherapy, and ridicules its practice, at least Dr. Sternbach’s perverted variety. Yet she writes with enough detachment and good natured humor to lighten the reader’s experience and leave a likeable image of herself.
— Ralph Bowden

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Feminine Rising embraces less frequently heard voices, including those of rural and working women, and does what the best anthologies do: builds force through its collective wave. For all the pain here, there’s solace in the book’s very act of reinvigorating an ongoing conversation.
— Karen Rigby

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A review from

Foreword Reviews

This is an enjoyable, interesting perspective on the time and culture in which Beatlemania flourished. It demonstrates very clearly that the young girls who were the most devoted fans were not so different from any other teens, and that their devotion and passion could be healthy and even helpful in the process of growing up.
— Catherine Thureson

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new releases

 
 
 

EVENTS

 

an interview with Melissa Knox, author of

Divorcing Mom: A Memoir of Psychoanalysis

from Book Q&As with Deborah Kalb

Q: Why did you decide to write this memoir?

A: In a confused, sad moment, I came across old journals I'd been writing since I was 14 or 15. I'd naively recorded, word for word, things my analyst said to me — without, at the time, any judgement about what he'd said.

Around the same time I was still struggling with his notions of how I should behave toward my mother, what I should feel about her--his instructions very much opposing my own inclinations. I discovered the website Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers — a revelation.

These two discoveries, the old journals and the website, made the scales fall from my eyes. The journals let me see my desperate adolescent self, longing for guidance and unable to perceive, not daring to see, that I wasn't getting it. The website pointed out what my analyst had trained me not to see: that my mother would never, could never, consider any point of view other than her own. And that she desperately needed a mother, and faulted me for not being hers.

Q: What impact did psychotherapy have on you and on your family?

A: Disastrous. But it was literally responsible for my existence. The psychoanalyst who was treating--separately--the persons who became my mother and father introduced these two ill-matched people to each other. I believe the analyst did so because, after her divorce, she was sad and lonely and fell for my father. Guilty about these feelings, she palmed him off on my mother, then blamed my mother for not loving him.

I may be giving the analyst too much credit, however: she certainly manipulated these two into marriage, possibly because my mother had enough money to support my father, and the analyst had figured out that my father would never make much of a living. The analyst kept the two of them together for a quarter century, during which they tormented each other and paid her for her "help."

Q: What do your family members think of the book?

A: My mother and cousins known nothing about it as far as I know — I'd like to let sleeping dogs lie. Nothing I write will make them feel differently and I see no reason to disturb them. I can imagine reactions ranging from wholesale denial to "How dare you tell?"

Q: What do you hope readers take away from the memoir?

A: That trusting one's own judgement — not going along with an authority whom you trust only because he or she is older — is best. I hope there's a form of analysis out there that involves self-discovery, rather than the rigid indoctrination I experienced. I'd like readers to tackle taboo topics, like permanently separating yourself from your mother, physically or emotionally or both. And I'd like readers to know that the worst returns, if not to laughter, at least to a sense of the absurd.

Q: What are you working on now?

A: I've been writing nonfiction on a range of topics--being a cancer patient, teaching literature in Germany, sexuality in menopause--a number of personal essays. I've completed one draft of a novel and am letting that sit while I start another. The novel writing has been a wonderful escape from me, a lot of fun.

Q: Anything else we should know?

A: I love hearing from readers. A question I get frequently is "Don't you love your mother?" The answer is that unfortunately I do — it's excruciating. I think I love her more, or have more understanding and therefore sympathy, now that I've researched and written the things that happened to her and to me in psychoanalysis. Keeping my distance allows me to feel more sympathy.

Interview with Deborah Kalb

 

FORTHCOMING

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Melissa W. Hunter

Introducing Melissa W. Hunter, author of a forthcoming novel, part memoir, part reimagined fiction, that tells of her grandmother’s experiences during the Holocaust: What She Lost.

Sheldon Russell

Introducing Sheldon Russell, author of the page-turning forthcoming historical fiction novel A Forgotten Evil.